Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Yesterday was the first broadcast of my online radio show "The Butterfly Garden," which you can listen to here. I was so hesitant about doing it, because for one, it's really not my thing. I'm an introvert by nature, and I'd much rather just tend to a small group of people, in a small little space, and call it a day. Two, I'm never really 100% sure if I've heard from God or not. I mean, sometimes I have a pretty good idea if I've heard from Him, but others, it could really go either way. So Wednesday through Friday morning I was actually excited. I was looking forward to sharing the lesson, and I just really wanted to see how God would move. But then, once Friday night came, I started questioning everything! "Did I really hear from God?" "Would anybody tune in to listen?" "Was the lesson that I had planned relevant?" A million and one thoughts were running through my mind, and I really wanted to pull the plug on the entire thing.
After I got myself together, I realized that it was just fear taking over, and that I needed to calm down and regroup. Over the last couple of years, I've learned to feed my fears with God's Word in order to strengthen my faith, and that's exactly what I did. I started listening to sermons, reciting Scriptures, praying, you name it. In the midst of all of that, I received a notification that the owner of a store that I frequent had committed suicide earlier that day. And aside from the initial shock of the news, I felt convicted and wondered, "What if the thing that God has called me to do could save someone's life?" I'm not saying that the radio show would have saved his life in particular, but the fact that it could save a life was enough to make me go forward with the broadcast. Was I 100% comfortable with it? No. But I felt 100% commissioned to do it.
Even today, I still don't know who all God is going to send to listen to the show, and I don't know how many lives will be changed, if any. But I do know that God would not have placed that task on my heart if at some point it's not going to impact someone. Whether it's one month from now, or one year from now, I don't know. I'm just willing to make myself available to Him, if and when that time comes.
So I don't know what God has laid on your heart to do that you're maybe fearful of pursuing because of your own perceived inadequacies, but if God has commanded you, then He will be with you just like Joshua 1:9 says. If God has commanded you, then you're in the perfect condition for Him to use you. If something has been on your heart to do for years, and you still haven't done it, make this year your year. Make this the year that you trust God like never before. Be strong, be courageous, and just do it. You never know whose life may be depending on the gift that you hold...
God Loves You!